I am long past what has been.
I am looking to the near future with a weary, but excited mind, body and soul. I have presented myself with two options. Both are diffucult and rewarding endeavors. Both people are genuine and good. One feels more right than the other though. One feels like destiny. The other feels like right now.
I feel like I made the choice hours before we talked about anything. Now it’s up to me to carry out my decision and break a silent understanding with the other. We felt great, but not completely right.
Or maybe I am rushing into what I don’t need right now.
In spite of the guilt and uncertainty I feel, I also feel proud that I was able to present myself whole-heartedly. I was completely honest. Making that choice was easy. Now on to the hard.